TU DIT
TU DIT
The day falls to be happy. The grey clouds burst with the uncertainty of his smiles and that of the funny feeling in my stomach when I see his crinkled eyes and his frail body heavily lifting up. Like a drug addict I said. The figurine in her hand looks pretty. She wonders if the other one is her boyfriend. You bitchy prick I mutter. The rain falls and I wade through the puddles, watching the eyes on my clingy t-shirt. Nice he mutters. There are sudden bursts of smiles; a premonition of good things to come is around the corner and they watch me with incredulity. You are much easier to talk to now they say. Yesterday the picture they saw and giggling they ask how the hair stands on top of your head so still. I push back my head and laugh a Carrey Bradshaw laugh. Like a drug addict they say. Life wasn't normal anyway, now there are these wonderful masks that lack of coffee brings. I am suddenly all of bright blue pullovers and heels. I am suddenly glass bangles and white t-shirts.
Life can't be loved and I am not trying any more.
The day falls to be happy. The grey clouds burst with the uncertainty of his smiles and that of the funny feeling in my stomach when I see his crinkled eyes and his frail body heavily lifting up. Like a drug addict I said. The figurine in her hand looks pretty. She wonders if the other one is her boyfriend. You bitchy prick I mutter. The rain falls and I wade through the puddles, watching the eyes on my clingy t-shirt. Nice he mutters. There are sudden bursts of smiles; a premonition of good things to come is around the corner and they watch me with incredulity. You are much easier to talk to now they say. Yesterday the picture they saw and giggling they ask how the hair stands on top of your head so still. I push back my head and laugh a Carrey Bradshaw laugh. Like a drug addict they say. Life wasn't normal anyway, now there are these wonderful masks that lack of coffee brings. I am suddenly all of bright blue pullovers and heels. I am suddenly glass bangles and white t-shirts.
Life can't be loved and I am not trying any more.
Labels: Dark Corners, Out in the Spring
posted by De.vile at 9:19 PM
20 Comments:
Love is a whacky thing. Life is pretty damn funky. I think I like what I see, or at least that is what I keep telling myself!!
If u 'try' to love life, it can be a tough thing to achieve because curve balls may hinder ur efforts...so don't 'try' to love...leave it and sooner or later you will love life naturally...
Keshi.
suddenly i find myself itching to know more. a sequel, perhaps?
When i was 16 my math teacher found my notebook full of bad poetry and they halled me off to see the man. They told me they thought i was suicidal and that i was on drugs just because of the poems (and i had a seires of self portaits commiting diferant types of suicide) lol They said i had to write a poem about the birds and trees and how nice it was outside. They wouldnt give me my notebook back untill i wrote it. I didnt write it and I never got my notebook back.(assholes)I think your writing is getting better with each post but my (unsolicited)advice is relax. It is something i must remind myself of every day.
Maybe life can be loved, if only we truly give up trying to force it. It is like trying to fall asleep. And, by the way, I actually do think of myself as being pretty cool. Ha!
Happiness may not be on your side always, dear.
Sometimes I wonder why..
heyyy De Vile
mmmuuuuaaahhhh 1
dat was a brilliant post and very readable
then u go and spoil it all by
'Life can't be loved and I am not trying any more'
its a beautiful world and a beautiful like girl
i hope some day u will see it, or
u will land up wid ASHES someday
i thought i had already commented on this one..
anyways gurl u haf a way wit ur last lines! :)
Saby you are a sick bastard. You go after fragile chat personalities like bhaaluu and sebia. These bloggers cannot fight back. So you go after them with vengence. You play mind games with Keshi, write filty comments on Janice's blog, pester pearl, tanvi and rohit with sexual dirt. These chatters have fired back at you which is why you shut up so easily.
You have no respect for others and put on a facade of being an old man with a family. A family man will not spend so much time blogging and wondering whose blog to fill with sex related topics. You are a lone person with a sick mind and its sad that people allow you to comment on their blogs or even laugh at your perverted jokes when not directed at them.
You are a heartless person with no morals. You are another Ted Bundy online.
who dis guy?
NO! not the mouse
dis Ted Bundy
is he as hott as me?
I began to take pictures at a time when I was very depressed. I just took a few pictures and then I was amazed at the Life I saw around me. My attitude to Life changed as I stopped focussing on myself and my problems and started looking at the life around me. People, cultures, nature... everyday things I hadn't noticed before.
Before I knew it, I had become hooked on enjoying, learning from, and loving life in its different moods and these pictures are what could be captured to remember moments.
I'm a bit of a loner, an impulse traveller, and not a very great communicator, but I'm learning!
Now, thanks for visiting this website, and for reading this bit about pictures and me. I hope you enjoy this website as much as I enjoy it.
http://www.riveroflife.be/index.html#caraf
De Vile
i am old enuff to be yr dad also grand dad mebbe
so listen little girl
FIND A PASSION IN YOUR LIFE
it can be anyting
SEX! PORN! or CRICKET!
and life will be worth living
and done ever ever loose yr sense of humour
u have dat now
which keeps u sane
u have a right and a responsibility to pursue happiness
its not only for u
its for yr friends and family too
happiness is contagious
so is sadness
Hey Dil.Ville,
Hi buddy, where are u? I dun see u online anymore.. What hpnd? I have sent u a mail as well. Do reply soon. Take care.
Peace,
Firacub.
What is religion?
"Religion—sometimes used interchangeably with faith or belief system—is commonly defined as belief concerning the supernatural, sacred, or divine, and the moral codes, practices and institutions associated with such belief. In its broadest sense some have defined it as the sum total of answers given to explain humankind's relationship with the universe. In the course of the development of religion, it has taken a huge number of forms in various cultures and individuals."
In my view, religion is supposed to be a philosophy and not a covenant or some code. A religion shouldn't dictate terms and conditions. If it does, then the believers' belief is conditional! And thus the love for "God" turns out to be conditional as well. So, what is that worth? One might as well put that faith in the "devil." Both would be equivalent in such a case. By the way, have we ever thought why most religions have an entity titled God and another anti-God? Why is there a characterization of good and evil? Isn't that the root of all effort? Good and Bad!
There are instances where one can easily percieve a certain degree of change of thought in holy books.And that leads one to an inference that a religon wasn't written by ONE person. Its the theories that were put forth from "time to time" by various scholars, philosophers etc. that were widely accepted and an amalgam of these theories turned into what we today call a religion. And, unfortunately, we have become rigid in not letting people comment/criticise religions today. ["time to time" is supposed to convey that conditions prevailing at a certain time cannot possibly stay the same. The "problem of universals" debate began with Heraclitus' (in Greece) observation and the answers were given by Plato and Aristotle by entirely different theories. The problem was debated way earlier in the Nyaya and Carvaka schools of thought in India. Heisenberg's uncertainity principle is slightly related in this context, as well.]
Let me take Hinduism as an example. I am sure a lot of Hindus must have, at least, heard of Vedas, Upanishads, Puranas etc. ,if not read them. But how many of us have heard of the Carvaka school of thought? There are instances where great sages have blasted the Vedas and the concept of soul and Self! I am amazed at the logic and the reasoning provided by that school of thought! It has a strong parallel in the philosophy of Plato, Aristotle and others. The tearing apart of the entire basis of Nyaya school of thought i.e. inference, cause and effect etc. is just mind boggling!
But thanks to such criticism Hindu philosophers, thinkers etc. , later, came up with more logical and reasoning-based theories that concretised the earlier theories presented by these books (which, again, were NOT conceptualised/composed by ONE person.) One of them was the great sage Shankaracharya.
How many Hindus would dare to criticise (or differ with) (if they find anything worth criticising) such sacriligous books today? Not many! Such people who don't understand or rather dont try to understand what their religion means, are in a way, no better than fundamentalists, extremists etc. The ones who do understand are either too scared or are disciplined by the extremists! Or, may be, they dont care enough 'cause they have better things to worry about. The same goes for, perhaps, all religions. Just because someone says he/she saw God, doesn't mean we also MUST believe in God. We must have our own quest, our own path to search for the ultimate, and if that's God, all the more better. Not that we must discredit others' achievement but we must not adopt others' thoughts as ours, we cannot inherit or buy experience! We must realize religion, and not just know/memorize books, to be a proud Hindu/Muslim/Catholic/Buddhist etc. A good student asks questions and that's how he learns.
So, in my opinion, criticism, or mere asking questions, is as important as believing! Why let some priest or a book or your father/mother tell you how to condition your mind (if they don't have a sound reasoning backing their arguments)? Why not let you come up with your own theory of the "answers given to explain humankind's relationship with the universe?" Who knows you might come up with something that is far better than anything we have till date? Or may be your criticism might lead you to a wonderful theory that would go a long way in bringing about a revolution in the religion you belong to! Or ignite some other mind with a wonderful answer to your critique. Perhaps this reasoning has an answer for the following also: why has there been a decline in the philosophical depth of religions as time progressed? we see cults, rising every now and then, lacking philosophical depth and then dying out in due course of time.
Finally, I believe a religion shouldn't be considered too pious to be amended. Change is one of the fundamental laws of nature. Religions, themselves, were born because there was a change in thought. And religions (and,effectively, cultures as well) always have a considerable effect of the socio-economic, political, geographical etc. conditions of the place of the birth of that religion embedded in them. And the reason, again, being that the theories were proposed by intellectuals/thinkers/spiritual giants, whose minds were (and always shall be) bound by time, laws of nature and other conditions prevalent in that geographical location at that time.
I might, someday hopefully, write about God. But I need to read a lottt, think a lotttttt, and if I dont go crazy (which I guess I am close to being one), then yeah sure, I will.
Thanks! Your comments/critique is welcome as ever! Its gona help me and I do need it.
posted by Vikas Kaul at 12:57 AM on Jun 24 2005
heyyyy De Vile dis is CYNO from chat no the guy ?
Hows ya chikkster? Where r ya? No more blogging? Hope ur ok...
Keshi.
gurl..howz u doin..wher r ya?
the De Vile tinks
all the mad caps (me and Pithaly) are roaming the street
while the sane guys are locked in
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